via ABC:
A young girl was raped by the head of a global yoga movement, Satyananda Sawaswati, on his visit to a New South Wales ashram, an inquiry has heard. The Royal Commission into Institutional Responses to Child Sexual Abuse hearing into the Satyananda Yoga Ashram at Mangrove Mountain on the state's central coast was also told a group of swamis abused the girl in a ritual setting. The girl, known as APR in the hearing, moved to the ashram with her mother, father and sister in the late 1970s. The abuse started when she was three years old.
"The ashram was the kind of place that if you scream, no-one comes," she said. At the ashram, family relationships were broken down and parents separated from their children, who were routinely beaten, sexually abused and deprived of adequate medical treatment and food. Attendees were referred to as "Innamtes" by the head of the movement, handed their assets to the ashram, shaved their heads, and wore orange robes. "I feel the entire ashram was groomed into a place of powerlessness," APR said. "My mother, who was a beautiful, strong and creative woman, was somehow brought to the point where she couldn't trust her ability to make decisions." APR recalls that when she was no more than six years old she was taken into a dark room lit with candles. There were five or six male swamis in the room, some of whom she recognised from the ashram.
During the ritual, she was held down and raped by Ahkandananda, the India director and spiritual leader of the ashram. "While he was doing that, Ahkandananda cut the skin between my breasts with a knife and then licked the blood. He threw it into the fire," she said. APR said she was then assaulted by several of the men and still has a scar down her chest.
Satyananda still worshipped as a guru
Founder Satyananda Sawaswati was the head of the organisation until 1988 and is still worshipped as a guru.
APR said that on one of his visits to the central coast ashram he raped her during an initiation ceremony. "For years I have pushed away the thought that he had raped me, as my entire childhood I was raised to believe he was like God, pure love," she said. The allegation follows earlier testimony given by another former child resident of the Satyananda Yoga Ashram, Bhakti Manning, that Satyananda abused her in India.
APR said she was also abused at night by older boys at the ashram when she was five or six years old. She said the boys would zip her sleeping bags to theirs and perform sexual acts with her, and that this happened to other girls as well. "I could see other girls in the room were also being put in the bags like I was," she said.
Pornography and drugs given to children
APR said pornographic magazines were put in the children's section of the ashram's library and that adults would give children a hallucinogenic drug called mungen brought from India. "The adults used to egg us on to take bigger and bigger hits of it until we passed out on the floor, and no-one ever stopped this," she said.
APR detailed the horrific effects of the ashram on her life. She suffers from chronic insomnia, flashbacks, and regressions to her childhood when she does not know who she is. She said the effects of her upbringing really hit home when she had her own daughter. "I would hold this tiny girl in my arms and try to understand how anyone could take advantage of someone so small," she said.
Parents 'need to own the choice they made'
The royal commission is expected to hear from a number of former adult residents and parents over the next week. "I want to see the ashram actually protect children and not just be a guru fan club where people leave their brains at the door," APR said. She told the inquiry she wanted the ashram shut down and said the adults that were there at the time were partly to blame for the abuse. "The adults need to own the choice they made - they were the ones that put the kids in that situation," she said.
"They were the ones who stayed, and by staying, made it impossible for us to leave."
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Saturday, May 19, 2012
The Network of Stolen Consciousness
via Whale.to
The following article, written by trauma-based mind control survivor Beth Goobie, is enormously useful for comprehending the metaphysical component of the Monarch Project. I don't agree with her belief that occultism is necessarily always oriented towards pain and suffering, although, given the gravity of this information, and the importance of the techniques she describes in widespread social engineering agendas, belaboring that point seems like quibbling over trivialities. Also, the bolded statement is my own, not that of the author.
I am a survivor of intelligence cults that operate across Canada and are connected internationally. In 1959, I was born into an intergenerational CIA-connected cult that continues to operate in central Ontario. I was first subjected to calculated torture sessions in the womb, and have been able to integrate fetal selves as an adult. I was an experienced dissociater at birth, an accomplished prostitute before kindergarten, and was being circulated on an elite international circuit by grade school.
My programming involved fragmentation into alters who were trained as sex agents, couriers, computers, and cult alters (priestess, seeker, caller, whore, slave, trainer, etc.). Some of my alters were trained to handle weapons. The stories of Kathleen Sullivan, Brice Taylor, Cisco Wheeler, and Claudia Mullen, as well as Cathy O’Brien’s Trance Formation of America describe much that is familiar to me, including near-death centers and ‘hunting.’ I would like to thank each of these women for speaking out. I deeply admire your courage. Keep going.
My perspective differs somewhat from the women mentioned above in that I have experienced a great deal, both personally and through recovered memory, of the metaphysical. I do not believe occult ceremonies are based solely on superstition and programming. It is my understanding that both cults and the intelligence network are developing the technology to exploit the metaphysical realities that are a daily part of all our lives, and that they intend to use these metaphysical realities to fragment and radically realign the consciousness of the average citizen for purposes of ‘mind control’ and to ‘feed’ off the energy of each individual life. I would like to discuss this as a complex process that aligns the brain to specific frequencies, then uses calculated trauma and dissociation to force interaction with the metaphysical. This interaction is then programmed for specific purposes by the intelligence community.
...Dissociation is commonly experienced during trauma. Rape and traffic accident survivors describe out-of-body experiences during which they float above their bodies and watch terrifying activities transpire below. This experience occurs naturally, whether the actual trauma is a fluke occurrence or a calculated torture session. What I have come to understand, based on a decade of recovery, is that the traumatized mind of a young child doesn’t just send itself upward to escape. It can dissociate in one or all six directions simultaneously...After consciousness projects itself out-of-body to escape trauma, it continues to exist. A dissociated fragment of consciousness (an alter) can watch and think, remember and record what is happening to her body as she hovers above, beside or below it. (Many survivors can remember a single torture session from several out-of-body perspectives. These tend to be less affected by pain, shock, drugs or virtual reality headsets because they no longer reside within the body. This is the source of the majority of recovered memories – dissociated alters who have been projected out-of-body.)
...We are electric beings. Consciousness is a form of energy that is naturally coded into many different frequencies. These frequencies of consciousness align with the many alternate dimensions of reality we live within. Thus out-of-body states can occur at many different frequencies of consciousness. When consciousness leaves the body, it becomes a form of energy, a set of brain waves that has been projected outward. This energy, or brain frequency, can change as it travels. Consciousness that is projected upward leaves the body as quick warm vibrations. As consciousness travels upward, the vibrations quicken and grow warmer, the colors of the vibrations change from pastels to white light, and sounds are emitted at higher and higher pitches. The dimensions through which this projected consciousness travels also correspond to these changing frequencies.
I clearly recall ECT torture sessions at a doctor’s office in which I was told by the doctor to send myself upward. Before the electric shock was applied, I would be told a story about the dimension in which I was supposed to relocate after I left my body. For example:
“Up Up Up is a land of angels,” he (the doctor) says. “It’s a land where everything is white and clean. The angels are friendly and they sing happy songs. They play harps and sit on clouds. There are many white crosses there. When you go to Up Up Up, you’ll be happy. There will be no devils and there will be no dark.”...As electric shock was applied to send me upward, a carefully choreographed scenario would often take place around me. For example, a man dressed as a devil might come running into the doctor’s office:
“Then the door to the Operating Room bursts open and a devil comes in. A devil all dressed in black with horns on his head. The nurse screams, waving her hands. ‘Gotcha,’ the devil yells at me. ‘Gotcha, Dorell. Gotcha.’ I’m jerking from the electricity so I can’t watch the devil jump all around me with his pitchfork. The doctor keeps sayinig, ‘Up Up Up.’ It starts to happen. As if I’m a white sheet pinned to a clothesline and the clothes pins come loose and a wind picks the sheet up slow, lifting me higher and higher, away from where I’m tied down, away from the electricity. Now, it doesn’t hurt no more. It’s easy, I lift into Up where I been lots of times. (The Only-Good Heart, p. 45)...As electric shock was applied to send me upward, a carefully choreographed scenario would often take place around me. For example, a man dressed as a devil might come running into the doctor’s office:
As I traveled upward, I found myself passing through levels of out-of-body consciousness. The first level, which I was taught to call ‘Up,’ existed just under the office ceiling. There I was able to float free of pain and fear, and watch as the doctor and nurse applied further electric shock to my pre-school body on the table below. However, I wasn’t alone as I floated in ‘Up’ and watched my body – other dissociated fragments of consciousness were floating there with me. One belonged to the doctor, one to the nurse, one to the man dressed as a devil, and there were several who looked like me and seemed to live there permanently; each of them watched what was taking place below. When they talked to each other, their voices were slightly higher than normal.
As more electric shock was applied to my body, I traveled further upward, passing through the ceiling into the next level which was called ‘Up Up’ – a sky-blue dimension full of dissociated fragments of consciousness belonging to familiar and unfamiliar people, all of them floating peacefully. These fragments looked like human bodies but had a spirit-like quality, and their voices were slightly higher and faster than voices in ‘Up.’ The next dimension, ‘Up Up Up,’ existed at a white-light frequency that was also peaceful and populated with human-looking high-voiced angels, some of whom looked like me. However the level above this was a dimension of ‘pure white fire’ and extremely difficult to endure. The white figures of ‘angels’ could be seen traveling up and down from this level, which was called ‘God,’ a collective dimension of the projected psychic energy of electric shock.
In later ECT torture sessions, I traveled past ‘God’ into dimensions of outer space where I floated among stars and planets. Again, I found other fragments of human consciousness in these dimensions, though not as many. The doctor who controlled the ECT sessions programmed my out-of-body consciousness to return to my body when a specific tactile trigger was applied to my body. When I returned, he would have me report everything I had seen and experienced while traveling out-of-body. Gradually I realized he couldn’t, or wouldn’t, travel as far as I did, either because he didn’t want to experience the level of electric shock it took to dissociate that far, or because he was unable to project psychically as far as I was.
I also experienced torture sessions in cold dark rooms that often involved being hung upside-down or placed inside coffins. I would be ordered to ‘go Down’ – i.e., project my consciousness downward. The mind travels downward in slow dark frequencies that commonly trigger interaction with psychic dimensions of graveyards, tunnels, caves, demons, vampires or ghosts. These dimensions are as interactive as white-light dimensions – i.e., dissociated fragments of human consciousness already inhabit these levels, taking the forms of vampires or demons, just as they took on the forms of spirits and angels in the white-light dimensions.
It has been my experience that avoiding the typical value judgements placed on dark and light psychic realities is essential to healing. These dimensions are about frequencies of consciousness, not good and evil. (Herein lies one of the primary stumbling blocks of conspiracy culture: if every person contains the capacity for good and evil, perpetually looking for the source of that evil in the always external other (perceived by the lazy as superficial representations of "darkness" such as occult symbolism) comes with the ever present danger of becoming your own shadow through attempting to suppress your own human nature. There is also the fact that, too often, people in search of an enemy end up embodying the same qualities of that which they most wish to eradicate in the first place.))
...Thus, frequencies of sound, color, light and dark are used to divide, store and exploit consciousness. Holographs and virtual reality headsets have also been used as gateways to trigger alters to enter specific collective dimensions. The media is currently being used by the intelligence community to create dimensions of consciousness that can then be used to program and store alters in psychic interactive dimensions. In the last decade, the technology has been developed to beam images onto the human brain during sleep from remote control locations. This technology serves many purposes — to program individuals for specific tasks while asleep, to create ‘false’ or ‘screen’ memories, to cut people off from their own true dreaming which is a wellspring of consciousness, individuality and spirituality, and to establish generic dimensions of consciousness (more effectively than the television set). However, this ‘techno-dream’ technology also enables intelligence cults to trigger an individual to create and project alters into new dimensions on an ongoing basis without trauma-based physical contact
...If you can remember them, these techno-dreams are easy to identify. Whether they involve alien abductions, demons, rituals, ‘children of light’ or ‘star people’ scenarios, Armageddon-type wars between the ‘Lord of Light’ and the ‘Dark Lord,’ or simply sessions with a psychiatrist instructing you about ‘your’ mental illness, the main identifying feature is that they do not interact with the individual dreamer. Techno-dreams are generic images, movies that have been created to program thousands of individuals, perhaps simultaneously. For example, the psychiatrist in a techno-dream does not say, “Now Beth, your symptoms of schizophrenia are becoming pronounced.” She says, “Your symptoms of schizophrenia...”
Much of my trauma-based programming involved ‘Seeker’ alters who were triggered to leave the body and explore dimensions that existed at frequencies currently unknown to the intelligence cult, then report back to my trainer. Different levels of electric shock and radiation were explored in order to calculate the ‘levels’ of consciousness to which they might project an individual. I remember being tested with sounds of all types, being told to send myself into them, then report what I saw or experienced in the corresponding dimensions that opened up. I was also tested in this way for sounds beyond the conscious range of hearing. Drugs facilitated this process because they were a mechanistic means of altering brain frequencies and the dimensions that could then be perceived. They also intensified the experience. It is my understanding that drugs do not create ‘false images,’ — i.e., ‘hallucinations’ — they alter brain frequencies and connect an individual to a different range of dimensions. (These dimensions can also be reached drug-free through meditation.)
In ‘seeking’ experiments, color patterns were often flashed on a wall, and I was told “send yourself into the gate.” I would then project myself through the gateway pattern of colors flashing on the wall, through to a different dimension of consciousness. Out-of-body, I would explore this dimension, seeking out its possible uses as frequencies of consciousness (‘feed’) and the non-human entities that inhabited it, until my trainer triggered me to return to my body. Sometimes I would project myself through a color gate to find one of my trainer’s dissociated alters already waiting for me in the desired dimension. Other times I would report back what I had found, and then the trainer would join me there. These were exploration scenarios; even out-of-body, many of these dimensions were unbearable. Children were used as guinea pigs and sometimes died; others were left permanently disabled. The greater your ability to seek and travel, the more interested intelligence cults were in ‘owning you’ for the rest of your life.more..
The following article, written by trauma-based mind control survivor Beth Goobie, is enormously useful for comprehending the metaphysical component of the Monarch Project. I don't agree with her belief that occultism is necessarily always oriented towards pain and suffering, although, given the gravity of this information, and the importance of the techniques she describes in widespread social engineering agendas, belaboring that point seems like quibbling over trivialities. Also, the bolded statement is my own, not that of the author.
I am a survivor of intelligence cults that operate across Canada and are connected internationally. In 1959, I was born into an intergenerational CIA-connected cult that continues to operate in central Ontario. I was first subjected to calculated torture sessions in the womb, and have been able to integrate fetal selves as an adult. I was an experienced dissociater at birth, an accomplished prostitute before kindergarten, and was being circulated on an elite international circuit by grade school.
My programming involved fragmentation into alters who were trained as sex agents, couriers, computers, and cult alters (priestess, seeker, caller, whore, slave, trainer, etc.). Some of my alters were trained to handle weapons. The stories of Kathleen Sullivan, Brice Taylor, Cisco Wheeler, and Claudia Mullen, as well as Cathy O’Brien’s Trance Formation of America describe much that is familiar to me, including near-death centers and ‘hunting.’ I would like to thank each of these women for speaking out. I deeply admire your courage. Keep going.
My perspective differs somewhat from the women mentioned above in that I have experienced a great deal, both personally and through recovered memory, of the metaphysical. I do not believe occult ceremonies are based solely on superstition and programming. It is my understanding that both cults and the intelligence network are developing the technology to exploit the metaphysical realities that are a daily part of all our lives, and that they intend to use these metaphysical realities to fragment and radically realign the consciousness of the average citizen for purposes of ‘mind control’ and to ‘feed’ off the energy of each individual life. I would like to discuss this as a complex process that aligns the brain to specific frequencies, then uses calculated trauma and dissociation to force interaction with the metaphysical. This interaction is then programmed for specific purposes by the intelligence community.
...Dissociation is commonly experienced during trauma. Rape and traffic accident survivors describe out-of-body experiences during which they float above their bodies and watch terrifying activities transpire below. This experience occurs naturally, whether the actual trauma is a fluke occurrence or a calculated torture session. What I have come to understand, based on a decade of recovery, is that the traumatized mind of a young child doesn’t just send itself upward to escape. It can dissociate in one or all six directions simultaneously...After consciousness projects itself out-of-body to escape trauma, it continues to exist. A dissociated fragment of consciousness (an alter) can watch and think, remember and record what is happening to her body as she hovers above, beside or below it. (Many survivors can remember a single torture session from several out-of-body perspectives. These tend to be less affected by pain, shock, drugs or virtual reality headsets because they no longer reside within the body. This is the source of the majority of recovered memories – dissociated alters who have been projected out-of-body.)
...We are electric beings. Consciousness is a form of energy that is naturally coded into many different frequencies. These frequencies of consciousness align with the many alternate dimensions of reality we live within. Thus out-of-body states can occur at many different frequencies of consciousness. When consciousness leaves the body, it becomes a form of energy, a set of brain waves that has been projected outward. This energy, or brain frequency, can change as it travels. Consciousness that is projected upward leaves the body as quick warm vibrations. As consciousness travels upward, the vibrations quicken and grow warmer, the colors of the vibrations change from pastels to white light, and sounds are emitted at higher and higher pitches. The dimensions through which this projected consciousness travels also correspond to these changing frequencies.
I clearly recall ECT torture sessions at a doctor’s office in which I was told by the doctor to send myself upward. Before the electric shock was applied, I would be told a story about the dimension in which I was supposed to relocate after I left my body. For example:
“Up Up Up is a land of angels,” he (the doctor) says. “It’s a land where everything is white and clean. The angels are friendly and they sing happy songs. They play harps and sit on clouds. There are many white crosses there. When you go to Up Up Up, you’ll be happy. There will be no devils and there will be no dark.”...As electric shock was applied to send me upward, a carefully choreographed scenario would often take place around me. For example, a man dressed as a devil might come running into the doctor’s office:
“Then the door to the Operating Room bursts open and a devil comes in. A devil all dressed in black with horns on his head. The nurse screams, waving her hands. ‘Gotcha,’ the devil yells at me. ‘Gotcha, Dorell. Gotcha.’ I’m jerking from the electricity so I can’t watch the devil jump all around me with his pitchfork. The doctor keeps sayinig, ‘Up Up Up.’ It starts to happen. As if I’m a white sheet pinned to a clothesline and the clothes pins come loose and a wind picks the sheet up slow, lifting me higher and higher, away from where I’m tied down, away from the electricity. Now, it doesn’t hurt no more. It’s easy, I lift into Up where I been lots of times. (The Only-Good Heart, p. 45)...As electric shock was applied to send me upward, a carefully choreographed scenario would often take place around me. For example, a man dressed as a devil might come running into the doctor’s office:
As I traveled upward, I found myself passing through levels of out-of-body consciousness. The first level, which I was taught to call ‘Up,’ existed just under the office ceiling. There I was able to float free of pain and fear, and watch as the doctor and nurse applied further electric shock to my pre-school body on the table below. However, I wasn’t alone as I floated in ‘Up’ and watched my body – other dissociated fragments of consciousness were floating there with me. One belonged to the doctor, one to the nurse, one to the man dressed as a devil, and there were several who looked like me and seemed to live there permanently; each of them watched what was taking place below. When they talked to each other, their voices were slightly higher than normal.
As more electric shock was applied to my body, I traveled further upward, passing through the ceiling into the next level which was called ‘Up Up’ – a sky-blue dimension full of dissociated fragments of consciousness belonging to familiar and unfamiliar people, all of them floating peacefully. These fragments looked like human bodies but had a spirit-like quality, and their voices were slightly higher and faster than voices in ‘Up.’ The next dimension, ‘Up Up Up,’ existed at a white-light frequency that was also peaceful and populated with human-looking high-voiced angels, some of whom looked like me. However the level above this was a dimension of ‘pure white fire’ and extremely difficult to endure. The white figures of ‘angels’ could be seen traveling up and down from this level, which was called ‘God,’ a collective dimension of the projected psychic energy of electric shock.
In later ECT torture sessions, I traveled past ‘God’ into dimensions of outer space where I floated among stars and planets. Again, I found other fragments of human consciousness in these dimensions, though not as many. The doctor who controlled the ECT sessions programmed my out-of-body consciousness to return to my body when a specific tactile trigger was applied to my body. When I returned, he would have me report everything I had seen and experienced while traveling out-of-body. Gradually I realized he couldn’t, or wouldn’t, travel as far as I did, either because he didn’t want to experience the level of electric shock it took to dissociate that far, or because he was unable to project psychically as far as I was.
I also experienced torture sessions in cold dark rooms that often involved being hung upside-down or placed inside coffins. I would be ordered to ‘go Down’ – i.e., project my consciousness downward. The mind travels downward in slow dark frequencies that commonly trigger interaction with psychic dimensions of graveyards, tunnels, caves, demons, vampires or ghosts. These dimensions are as interactive as white-light dimensions – i.e., dissociated fragments of human consciousness already inhabit these levels, taking the forms of vampires or demons, just as they took on the forms of spirits and angels in the white-light dimensions.
It has been my experience that avoiding the typical value judgements placed on dark and light psychic realities is essential to healing. These dimensions are about frequencies of consciousness, not good and evil. (Herein lies one of the primary stumbling blocks of conspiracy culture: if every person contains the capacity for good and evil, perpetually looking for the source of that evil in the always external other (perceived by the lazy as superficial representations of "darkness" such as occult symbolism) comes with the ever present danger of becoming your own shadow through attempting to suppress your own human nature. There is also the fact that, too often, people in search of an enemy end up embodying the same qualities of that which they most wish to eradicate in the first place.))
...Thus, frequencies of sound, color, light and dark are used to divide, store and exploit consciousness. Holographs and virtual reality headsets have also been used as gateways to trigger alters to enter specific collective dimensions. The media is currently being used by the intelligence community to create dimensions of consciousness that can then be used to program and store alters in psychic interactive dimensions. In the last decade, the technology has been developed to beam images onto the human brain during sleep from remote control locations. This technology serves many purposes — to program individuals for specific tasks while asleep, to create ‘false’ or ‘screen’ memories, to cut people off from their own true dreaming which is a wellspring of consciousness, individuality and spirituality, and to establish generic dimensions of consciousness (more effectively than the television set). However, this ‘techno-dream’ technology also enables intelligence cults to trigger an individual to create and project alters into new dimensions on an ongoing basis without trauma-based physical contact
...If you can remember them, these techno-dreams are easy to identify. Whether they involve alien abductions, demons, rituals, ‘children of light’ or ‘star people’ scenarios, Armageddon-type wars between the ‘Lord of Light’ and the ‘Dark Lord,’ or simply sessions with a psychiatrist instructing you about ‘your’ mental illness, the main identifying feature is that they do not interact with the individual dreamer. Techno-dreams are generic images, movies that have been created to program thousands of individuals, perhaps simultaneously. For example, the psychiatrist in a techno-dream does not say, “Now Beth, your symptoms of schizophrenia are becoming pronounced.” She says, “Your symptoms of schizophrenia...”
Much of my trauma-based programming involved ‘Seeker’ alters who were triggered to leave the body and explore dimensions that existed at frequencies currently unknown to the intelligence cult, then report back to my trainer. Different levels of electric shock and radiation were explored in order to calculate the ‘levels’ of consciousness to which they might project an individual. I remember being tested with sounds of all types, being told to send myself into them, then report what I saw or experienced in the corresponding dimensions that opened up. I was also tested in this way for sounds beyond the conscious range of hearing. Drugs facilitated this process because they were a mechanistic means of altering brain frequencies and the dimensions that could then be perceived. They also intensified the experience. It is my understanding that drugs do not create ‘false images,’ — i.e., ‘hallucinations’ — they alter brain frequencies and connect an individual to a different range of dimensions. (These dimensions can also be reached drug-free through meditation.)
In ‘seeking’ experiments, color patterns were often flashed on a wall, and I was told “send yourself into the gate.” I would then project myself through the gateway pattern of colors flashing on the wall, through to a different dimension of consciousness. Out-of-body, I would explore this dimension, seeking out its possible uses as frequencies of consciousness (‘feed’) and the non-human entities that inhabited it, until my trainer triggered me to return to my body. Sometimes I would project myself through a color gate to find one of my trainer’s dissociated alters already waiting for me in the desired dimension. Other times I would report back what I had found, and then the trainer would join me there. These were exploration scenarios; even out-of-body, many of these dimensions were unbearable. Children were used as guinea pigs and sometimes died; others were left permanently disabled. The greater your ability to seek and travel, the more interested intelligence cults were in ‘owning you’ for the rest of your life.more..
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